After backing off so many demons
it was the Covid got you
and I didn't know it
for another year and more
getting the news only tonight
via the internet but what's a year
when it's been fifty years
since you gave up on me
at least that's how I saw it
told me you'd felt slighted
cut me off
but in fact I loved you
though in those days
it would never have occurred to me
to say it out loud
not even to myself
even if it was for you
I flew to Tokyo
and I think you'd agree
we had some good times
that year in Japan
so now it's too late for amends
and I can live with that
if only I'd known where to find you
I did try but dammit
you were just too good at hiding out