Which for me means that I'm off
the carbs again and aiming for ketosis
a state just short of sainthood
or enlightenment
where the unwanted pounds
soon disappear
with scarce a sigh or backward glance
and the omentum shrinks
to where I can look down
and see my private parts
too long hidden from view
except before the mirror
or by strenuously sucking in my belly

And if my efforts find success I'm hoping
that my heart will also find relief
so that when walking
up the hill I'll be less breathless
lighter on my feet
the way I felt before the cancer medication
took away all my testosterone
but that's just an excuse
no time to vacillate
now with our newborn granddaughter
with whom I feel already
such a deep connection
desiring with all my heart
to watch her grow
through childhood and with luck
into young womanhood